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One of the greatest things in life is finding a friend who knows all of your mistakes and weaknesses and yet still finds you completely amazing and will never walk away ♥ well, i found mine(: have you?(:

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home econs

hello
i am at the home econs lesson now
this is super boring
in com lab one
yeah
bo'ring home econs team....
i am typing this
tiff is ar comps
JIA YOS(:
charlene is tying her hair(:
i am very bored
and just now i saw a very familar teacher
but i couldn't remem who
until now when i'm typing this
then i realise that she was actually the teacher in charge.
sian....

such a boredom...

ash):

failed

once in a life time
means there's no second chance
now i dont have to do what i mention previously
guess the effort didn't pay off
cause i didn't make it.
i didnt.

i need to talk and cry it all out

A WINNER'S CREED

HELLO(:
we just had a super inspiration ranting talk
that was super awesome(:
thanks to
charlene
tiff
and me(:
erm
PRIVATE AND CONFIDENTIAL STUFF(:
BUT IT KINDA MEANS A LOT TO EACH AND EVERYONE OF US.
SO THANKS FOR JUST BEING THERE(:
RANTING AND HEARING RANTS ARE FUN(:

so anw,
there were some issues.
and i hope this helped your(:
its super awesome pls(:
and thus,
i decide to read this

A WINNER'S CREED(:

so listen up,
here it goes(:

if you think you are beaten, you are
if you think you dare not, you dont
if you like to win but think you cant
its almost a cinch you wont(:

if you think you'll lose, you already lost
For out in the world we find
Success begins with a person's faith:
Its alll in the state of mind

Life battles dont always go
to the stronger or faster hand
They go to the one who trusts in God
and always think "I CAN"

everyone says :" AMEN"

ahhaha

jia yous charlene(:
jia yous tiff(:

the talk was i dunno
emo?
inspirational?
depressing?

but whatever it is,
i'm sure you guys will pull through just find.
oh oh oh ,
and just like in an sms that i received like 1 week ago,
i've said it before, and i'll say it again.

"I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU GUYS
JUST LIKE HOW YOU GUYS
HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME"

volcanic ash(:

if only time could stand still....

happy birthday gladys(: and grats to jim crows(:

hellos(:
i forgot to say something impt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLADYS(:
haha
lol gladys.
it time you unhook your hair
feel the wind(:
anw
you're 1 year older
and i dont know whether you'll ever read this,
but its the thought tat matters(:
haha
the best b'day present i can ever give you is to continue taking 67 with you(:
so auntie right,
yeah.
but i know that such a practical present(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY(:

next,
we already presented our jim crow laws.
SLEEPING AT 2 WAS DEFINITELY WORTH(:
lol
and i think the entire group was awesome
especially the skit(:
1 in a million.
AND TO TAT EVIL GROUP TAT COPY US...
THERE WILL BE KARMA. AND YOU WILL PAY FOR IT!
haha.
see the advantage of memorising your script?
it takes everyone single on of us to put this all together.
and even though grannie forogt to save as 2003 versions,
but we pulled it throught(:
its okay granny.
its kinda your fault
but its not your fault(:
i should have reminded you...
nvm(:
so we are so awesome(:
just wait to see the results(:
i think we might be the highest(:
if we are,
i'll treat all of you guys to milo(:

LASTLY,
ITS MONDAY TMRW.
AND I HAVE LOTS OF STUFF ON
i got footdrill thingy
but it clashes with psl meeting
and most importantly,
i have to await for my news.
and rmb yesterday i said it was 7 days,
now i realise that its 5 days.
omg larh
things are happening to quickly.
5 days...
i think i'll cry whatever the news is larh
cause when i think abt at home in the toilet,
for some reason or so,
i will also thing abt lots if stuff
and i dont know why i'll just suddenly tear up
BUT NOT CRY(:
lol.
tiff you need to follow me tt day
or stand by me to hear the news.
urghs!
i hate this.

on a sidenote, tiff and i finished our alien letter to earth(:
its super cool please(:
oh oh oh and i got someting super cool to show granny(:

bye(:
i need to go poop.
really.
bye(:

ash(:
see you guys tmrw(:

me and my cousins(: 7 more days

hello(:
haha
this is super random
but right,
i am gonna post photos of 2 of my cousins(:
they're the ones i always see.
and notice they are both very photogenic?
expecially the younger one?
ahahha
remember the good old days?

p.s. i think some ppl cant. tats why they need to wish tt they can video tape down their life(:

kay(:

i dont know what is this. the digging nose thing is on purpose(:

i think this is E.T. phone home(:

Free shot. Sun Zhong Shan. I STILL CANT FORGEt HIM(:

lol. look at my younger cousin(: i cant post for this -.-

my sis looks super scary. and i look old

natural(:

someone's missing):

my sis looks wierd and i was holding the penguin(:

OMG LARH PLS(: AND I THINK THIS PHOTO IS STILL SUPER COOL.

speaking of which, there is still...

7 MORE DAYS OF FEAR

7MORE DAYS OF ANITICIPATION

7MORE DAYS OF SWEAT

7 MORE DAYS OF WAITING

7 MORE DAYS TO SETTLE THIS ENTIRE ISSUE

7 MORE DAYS OF BEING EMO INSIDE

7 MORE DAYS BEFORE I RANDOMLY STOP TO THINK ABT STUFF

7 MORE DAYS TO THE PIECE OF NEWS I NEED TO KNOW

omg

tiff

i need you to come save me...

thanks for already saving me fore the past 10 days since the thing started.

thank for following me to find those ppl

thanks for giving me the guts and the courage and fats to face those ppl

thanks for wasting yr time with me

thanks for bearing with my nonsense

thanks for listening to me

OMG

and thanks for many many more things.

sorry that you have to pathetically sit beside me and hear me go

"eh tiff, how?"

"omg larh, i can do it. NO i cant."

"how tiff how?"

"shit larh tiff. urghs..."

sorry for needing to follow me through this

sorry that you have to be the chosen one to go through all this

and i'm so sorry to all the other ppl

sorrry that i have to hide all these shit from you

sorry for having to hear me nag and nag abt

sorry for being like this.

JUST SORRY

but it will end it 7 days

oh and i so promise that if things go well, i will write a list of 100 thank yous for ppl(:

i cant take it anymore. pray pray pray

pray harder.

i so bloody swear that if i get what i want,

i will go be a vegetarian for 3 days

i will treat tiff to a meal

i will never truly complain abt it

i will work my ass off

i will get back to the top

and omg

and i will so treasure what i have.

7 more days....

ashthemusketeer):

things aren't settled yet...

LA PROJECT

before i continue, i decided tat i willl not use the word grannie today(:

hellos(: yesterday we went grannie's house to do LA project. we were suppose to reach at 1.30 pm but then we were late. or rather tiff was late. so i was hiding somewhere waiting for tiff to come so tt i can go into charlene's house with her(:
so pai seh if go alone. dunno why leh): we finished IVP before bev came. stupid larh
so easy also can get a silver. retarted. err so anw in the midst of doing the project, there was this huge box of delifrance thingy. omg and it was suepr nice. except for the cakes, which so happened to be tiff's favouritw. she was resisting but was at the end too tempted and then decided to start eating it.still wanna go one what diet larh please. utter failure. erm... so right, we were trying to do our stuff, changing shifts once in a while when suddenly we realised that we dont have much time left. so grannie and bev and tiff decided to discuss ont the skit while i did the soft copy of the ppt. tiff took forever to do a time line. so loser. haha. erm so i was busy doing the ppt and they were discussing and laughing a lot. its super funny larh. erm.. so after like 1/2 an hour or so, they finally came up with what to do for the skit where as i left a little bit of ppt left. FOCUS IS THE KEY(:
haha. actually all you really need to do is to focus on what you have to do and do it. so soon, i finished the ppt, and then they started dressing up and stuff and there was this sudden photoshoot of me for i dunno wat reason larh.on a side note, i was super nervous and wobbly and not my normal self for a period of time. and ppl were asking me to chill. i'm always likee tat during projects. urghs super funny.so we had pizza for dinner and bev and charlene left me and tiff in charlene's big house. 2 ppl only larh! then charlene was scaring tiff and tiff was scaring me. so in order to not make us so scared, we started singing. Hey juliet, check yes juliet, bad day, oh and the "charlene song"

"bring back, oh bring back, oh bring back my grannie to me to me"

super funny larh pls. everytime scared always sing song one. hahaha.oh and then we were playing bball. super funny also. my foot got stuck in the bloody fence when i went to get the ball. lucky i was fine(: hahah. then by the time it was 10, we had to leave. sia. we havent finish script. and we didn;t have the time. and that was when....

i went home. tiff charlene and i were on msn sending stuff around, trying to get things done. then charlene said that there was a super long script to edit that everyone had to edit. it was super long. and since there was no time, i decided to edit it myself. by that time, it was around 12.15. so i was editting and editting edtting and soon, it it was 1.30. haha and the funniest thing was charlene wanted to stay up with me cause she felt guilty that she didn;t do much work and that i was doing too much work. haha. i told her to sleep cause got traning but she dont want. at the end, i knew it.... she couldn't take it and she went to sleep forst. ahha. but thanks anw, at least you tried. on a side note, i totally love my cheering emoticons(: yeah, so i editied until 2.15 cause is doing so can save 1 day's time, then by all means larh. so from 1600 words, i edited to 900 words. AWESOME RIGHT? thats why today in class i was a little bit grouchy and not as ashleigh as the usual ashleigh. because sleeping at 2.15 is never good. never. thats why i got home today and slept for 5 straight hours. if not, i wouldnt be typing this now. but sleeping at 2.15 yesterday was worth it, despite the fact that focussing to much yesterday and night, led to me not being able to focus today in class.

HAHAAi think my team feels guilty. so funny larh pls. hahha and to someone who said that i shouldn't be too helpful, dont worry, i only become like that when it comes to projects. because i'm afraid that we wont finish it and that we will do badly. we do badly equals to me do badly. so if we is gonna make be do badly, then i my as well help we to make me better(: but tt doesn't mean your suck. tats just a perception i have. hahaha. but yeah.

so tts the end of this post.

bye(:

ash the musketeer(:

you know tts gonna happen to you dont you?
the harsh reality of life...

thanks a lot(:

haha
i found out who is mr jame ong already(:
so it was him(:
hahaha
it was hard .
i was struggling to look for him(:
thank god tiff followed me to give me support(:
would have died without her(:
and thats why sorry granny
didn't see you train.
i promise tiff and i will come next week
promise(:
i think tiff was the victim of the day
urghs
she had to listen to me moan and moan
and nag and nag and nag
abt the same thing over and over again
and not taking action
until after like super long.
ahhha
oh oh oh
and she had to bear with the slaps attack.
haha
poor tiff
so today the talk with her went liao overall
i think maybe because tiff was praying for me(:
ahahah
thanks(:
hahah tiff
and your sms is super awesome(:
means a lot(:
thanks(:
i cleared another round
and i've got a few more left(:
haha
thanks anyways(:
and to granny,
YOU'LL SEE 2 HEADS OR LVL 3 SOON(:
PINKY PROMISE(:
LOL

ash(:

"i've been waiting for my dreams to turn into something"

unglamity......

yo peepz
i've got nothing much to say today.
erm.
today was pretty boring
other than talking to the ppl around me,
the others were pretty much the norm.
oh yes 1 thing,
person _____ is bad
digressing
omg
lets die together(:
i already told tiff that by the end of 4 weeks,
we wont accomplish anything.
pls larh
talk so much
just keep noddin gmy head
FEEL LIKE A BOBBLEHEAD
"girls, your must trust me"
omg
i feel like snipping her mouth sometimes
lol
okay enough of aunties.
erm....
so there was ivp lessons
that was hard.
tiff has the most innovative mind amongst us(:
but we will pull it through(:
then there was the chi compo
which was bascially a copying lesson
blur ass teacher -.-
oh yes
and i still havent got hold of mr chow-.-
tannie save my pathetic ass(:
oh yes,
later i need to talk to tiff on msn
abt 1.2 sci
and then also there's a meeting at granny's house.
sigh....
BRING ALL YOUR SHIT THERE MY FRENS!
ITS DO OR DIE!
lol
okay.
oh yes,
one last thing
today tiff and i wre super pai seh
we got caught by the teacher
during sci class
caught us adjusting our skirts.
-.-
super funny
hahhaha

bye my frens(:
ash(:

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

the reason is you...

hi(:
so today lesson were pretty boring
there's up coming la project soon
we dont have much time left
i super sian larh
sigh.
too many things are happening at too fast a rate.
dont you wish for time to just stand still sometimes?
sigh...
so basically, bev tiff and grannie and i are i =n a team for almost everything-.-
hahhaha
yeah
oh and yes,
xin yu get well soon(:
your arm is quite funny actually(:
ahhaha

erm...
to those that have been asking the same quesiton to me
i'm so sorry i cant answer it now kays.
so sorry for dao-ing you
but i dont have a choice
and its super hard for me to bottle this shit up
but i promise
when things are settled,
i'll let it all out.
promise.

i found a reason for me
to change who i used to be
the reason to start over new
and the reason is you

adios amigos(:
ash

never alone....

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you
when its time to go home
May you always have plenty
The glass never empty
And know in your belly
You¹re never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
As every year passes
They mean more than gold
May you win and stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

I have to be honest
As much as I want it
I’m not gonna promise that cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

you'll never be alone....

signing off,
ash

confused

wats sup yall.
erm.
if these few days you see me not acting right,
or perhaps not acting the way i'm usually act,
or maybe thinking of stuff ,
or maybe sudddenly shouting at you,
I'M SUPER SORRY
but there's just stuff i need to settle
ONCE AND FOR ALL
recently,
i've been thinking abt certain stuff quite seriously
like ever since the teacher sat and talked with us,
i think that was the trigger
the trigger to really wake me up
perhaps its the wrong decision
perhaps its just me
but somehow or rather,
i just dont feel the oomph for it'
where's the drive?
where's the fight?
in the past,
it s like so real
that sensation you get
its really undescribable
i really cant take it no more
i seriously cant
and thats why i decided to take my stand
to dare to dream
dream for a better tomorrow.
i dont know how to put it across
maybe in sometime to come
you guys may see me as some loser
but honestly right,
i dont care.
cause its my life
and currently,
i just dont feel the passion for it.
its just differnt
its that special somthing that's missing.
its not something that you can find easilyy
but i guess i pinned too high hopes
i guess i made the wrong decision
dont get me wrong
i really love it here
i really do
its really awesome
but i guess its just not up for me.
i'm super bothered by this issue
i really am
i want things to get settled quick
but i am very tired.
its hard all right
it's hard.
right now,
i'm just confused,
empty
mayeb i'm trying
trying to had.
maybe i've already torn apart from
but i need this off of my chest.
it doesn't make me ashlegh.
i guess here we go then....
i'll tell you when things are settled
i promise ....
promise...

DARE TO DREAM, DARE TO FLY, DARE TO BE THE HEIR,
THE CHOSEN ON TO TOUCH THE SKY........

new year and first week of sch(:

hello(:
erm its been a long time since i updated my blog.so today it'll be a long one.yeah so a new year has began another year has just passed like that
time really flies
and wth, we're sec 2 liao
and i'm still as short
sec 1 has been awesome(:
and awesome year(:
with awesome frens(:
let 2010 be another awesome year(:
it has already started being awesome actually
just that time passed really slowly this week
maybe its because its january
but...
it really passed super slowly.
erm..
this week was sec 1 orientation
109(:
erm...
not as music-ish as i thought
they think i'm so awesome(:
hahha
they recognise me and wave at me larh pls(:
hahah
but anyways,
all the pss session we didn't talk abt the topics
we merely talked crap
and as sec 1s
they loved the crap(:
you know being sec 1s
they are just so quiet):
i got so scared by the sec 1s quietness.
so freaky.
but it got better(:
actually its quite fun you know(:
but skipping lessons was bad(:
but luckily i had the granny and the tiff-o to do the notes(:
THANKS(:
wonder what'll happen without then(:
speaking of that,
i so happened to be their buddies for the reminding of hw thingy(:
hahaha
so anyways,
i think this year's teachers are tootie...
old
naggy
auntie
more auntie
omg
and the teo
can die one sia
so anw
grannie is now behind tiff and i
she's sitting with bevo the babe-.-
who says that eh?
sounds super familiar.
was it rj or bev herself?
so far things have been going fine
and its fun(:
angels and mortals(:
the IVP scare was scary.
lol that pregnant lady sure can scare the guts out of me -.-
i'll be back to my normal self next week
no more duties
but i have sac duty(:
blow aircon(:
on a side note right,
tiff's tan is super cool(:
i need to get tanner(:
i lost my tan
and grannie's legs are super long!
you will realise it when you sit in front of her.
as for bev, her hair is starting to get curly(:
PANTENE/DOVE SHAMPOO BACKFIRES ON PPL WITH CURLY HAIR!!!!
FORGET THOSE THAT SAYS STRAIGTH AND SILKY!
IT DOESNT WORK -.-
i'm super tired these few days.
i go home and like nua in my bed
literally 0.0
and i have cca tmrw
sian.
i'll stop here for now.
I AM SUPER ANGRY WITH ONE STUPID PERSON NOW
LIKE WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU MAN!'
PIECE OF SHIT!
tmrw,
people arnd me watch out
i'm gonna brag a hell lot on this stupid person-.-

BETTER TO FAIL AT DOING SOMETHING, THAN TO SUCCEED AT DOING NOTHING ...

writing my mortal letter,
ash(: