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		moments last seconds. memories last forever... HEY(: wait. how old am i again? well that you should know.... I sit next to this reeely reely curly old person everyday. I've figured that I already lost my sanity a long time ago.. DID I MENTION I GET AMUSED BY THE LITTLEST THINGS(: And so, blah blah blah. you should know me better if you're my friend(: Love You / 사랑해 / 我爱你 / Saranghae

About This blog was opened by MEEE to accomodate MEEE's mindless musings and daily rantings. One of the greatest things in life is finding a friend who knows all of your mistakes and weaknesses and yet still finds you completely amazing and will never walk away ♥ well, i found mine(: have you?(: tagboard affiliates NYGH 102 Charlene Tiffany yourfriend Jocelyn Zara Melissa Rachel Teo Wen Xin Celia Joie Han Yi Qi Min CHIJ OLQP O8' 6 Peace 08 Antoinette Alex Esther Gracia Calista Limmie Eugenia Zi Rou Yu Zhong archives June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 November 2010 credits Design: doughnutcrazy Icon: morphine_kissed Do credit accordingly if you changed the icon.		Special feeling... You get that special feeling when you know that someone is praying for you... Thanks(: it meant a lot... Posted on: Friday, July 30, 2010 Posted at: 8:42 PM anticipate i'm talking to myself now.i know its freaking late alrd. but for some reason i cant fall asleep . as in i really really really wanna sleep but my brain is like to active or something... another person is still doing hist assignment when its due in a few hours time. ai yarh damn sian can.... i have hopes. but juz now i tink tink tink until no hope liao. i dont think i'll be tt sad if it fails at the end, i prolly juz be freaking disppointed, but duh who wouldnt be. i think i;m just too anxious to know the results larh. for some reason or so right, everyone keeps telling me they'll be praying for meee(: and ahhahahah(: i;m not even joking rite. but its just tt when they say these kind of things, it kinda tickles your little heart. dunno larh. you know its just tt special feeling that you get when you know that somebody is praying for you(: so thank you so much(: ahhaa(: and random note. my knee is juz bad. even i myself is worried... as in it doesnt look bad but soemthing juz tells me its bad. oh its the same as wats gonna hppen tmrw, like i think something good will happen but when you think of the odds, it looks so "impossib;e" 1 out of every 4. 1 person from our class? i oso dunno what to say le. this post is quite crap. i'm just bored. trying to make myself sleep. i think there come a point in time where you cant do anythnig but pray and let fate decide right~~~ yea. i'm not at this stage. and tmrw, i shall know my fate.... yeaaa... we'll see everyone. we'll seee. i'm yawning a bit now. i'll go try and sleep. see you soon. ashlegi(: (my name is not in the t9 dictionary marh) Posted on: Thursday, July 29, 2010 Posted at: 12:50 AM culture meet you know. if you're already knew that you were going to pangseh me. THEN CAN YOUR JSUT OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND SAY SOMETHING. FERN TIFF. seriously. IF YOUR DONT GET THIS, THEN LEMME TELL YOU STRAIGHT IN YOUR FACEs. I'M NOT TRYING TO BE UNREASONABLE. NEITHER AM I TRYING TO PICK A FUSS OUT OF THIS. BUT SERIOUSLY MAN. COME ON. SERANGOOON IS FREAKING FAR FROM MY PLACE. TO SACRIFICE AND GO THERE IS ALREADY ONE THING. BUT WHY DIDDNT YOUR JUST TELL ME THE NITE BEFORE THAT YOU'RE ARE GONNA LEAVE ONE HOUR AFTER THE THING. and the thing is ONE HOUR><><>< pissing. i;m saying everything now cos i'm abt to burst. i'll be fine tmrw. BUT SEROIUSLY MAN NOW... PISSING. ash. Posted on: Sunday, July 18, 2010 Posted at: 4:59 PM all door closing... i cant remember who.but someone told me that when one door closes, another door opens. you know. you're rite. when one door closes, another door DOES open. but sometimes, you just cant see the door that's open? The sad thing is that we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us. When one door closes another door opens wide, it's hard to believe all of the locked doors I've tried. And you can't pray for what you want or what you'd have instead. Cos you can only offer up your heart and ask that you be led Life's gonna take you,where you never thought you'd go and When you finally think you've got it down, well, It isn't so There are windows and doors, you're not finished with yet and it's not always getting what you want but its wanting what you get It's not gettin' easier, so I'm not going to pretend That I know this story from it's beginning to it's end and believe me when I tell you, believe me if you can If I could turn down the noise of my own will then I could hear the truth of my life in a clear voice I will bow down my head to the wisdom of my heart Cool my heels and hold on to the best parts sian. i think i'm contradicting myself. like yar duh i want the doors to be open. but now. there are too many doors open and their abt to close soon and i dont know which one to enter before it finally closes. i cant exactly put it too words larh. you know the question that you asked me today, left me speechless): i dunnno how to answer it. if i were to tell you it didnt mean anything to me, that would have been a total lie. but if i were to tell you that it means the whole world to me, man that would be a whole piece of crap. i cant put it to words what it means to me but that doesnt mean a good thing.to tell you that wow it means that entire thing to me and that i would like to do this and do that, you know those typical stuff? i would be lying straight out off my teeth. i just dont know why. and now that there's this other door opening before this door, i dont know whether i should go for it. the thing is what if i dont make it thru the current door i'm walking thru now. then there will be no more of such doors that will open again. but if i go for this door, i dont want to thru this same thing all over again. and what if i cant make it thru any of these doors at the end of the day... wouldnt i be the one hurting my self at the end? like will i be doing myself any good? you know. they always say that dont worry. its the process of going thru this door that matters, not whether you go thru this door or not. but seriously, when it comes to things like that, its no joke to bang into a wall at the end of the day after making pass all the rocks that you had to go thru jsut to reach where you are. i dont know larh. you know. it doesnt seem like its a very big issue. like i shouldnt be freaking out over this. like you may think that ai yarhhh, how stressful can it be and stuff? lol. you may choose not to belive this, but seriously, this is mind boggling and its a mental toll. having to go thru this twice in a row, tts jsut madness. man. i dont know how much longer i can take this. in school right, cos you jsut talk talk talk talk the entire day, so you can still remain in your happy hyper mode, but when you go home, then that;s a whole different story. SOMEONE TELL ME PLS... somebody out there. anybody out there. tell me what i should do. GIVE ME YOUR ADVICE. i really dont know what to do now. i'm seriously freaking confused. very very confused..... anybody.... S.O.S ashleigh): Posted on: Wednesday, July 14, 2010 Posted at: 8:13 PM why r u like tt “When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us." I NEED TO FIND THE OPEN DOOR. BUT I CANT SEE IT the stress is coming back again. and it jsut keeps getting worse. much much much worse. i'm gonna die tmrw larh. OHHHHH MYYYY GOOSHHHHH. SAVE ME. i''ll talk abt this some other day when my temper's gone, ashleigh Posted on: Wednesday, July 7, 2010 Posted at: 10:16 PM random sms chain i know i'm still suppose to be studying physics. but i juz finished dinner and i'm very very bored. so i'll post something short. Its from an sms chain(: btw, i don send back any sms chains-.- gosh. A STAR HAS 5 ENDS A SQUARE HAS 4 ENDS A TRIANGLE HAS 3 ENDS A LINE HAS 2 ENDS LIFE HAS ONLY 1 END BUT FRIENDSHIP NEVEEERR ENDSSS(: well. of cos friendship doesn end rite><><> HAHHA THE REASON WHY I AM BLOGGIN SO MUCH IS BECOS I DOWNLOADED A LOT OF GADGETS ONTO ME COMPUTER, AND ONE OF THEM IS CALLED THE BLOGGER BUDDY(: its super convienient pls. no need go internet. PLUS, if you make your vista computer a background with night stars ans you put lots of gadgets on yr screeen. IT LOOKS DAMN FREAKING COOL. and you know i have this one gadget. where you watch live pandas from san diego zoo. its freaking live i tell you. but now their sleeping. except for 1 panda. AND I AM NOT KIDDING. BTW RANDOM SHIT. BUT GO DIED DRIED CHILLI!!!!!!!!!!!! EVIL WOMAN><><> OOMPH(: Posted on: Monday, July 5, 2010 Posted at: 8:14 PM youth day IS physics revision day okay. i will go mug one more chapter and i will be back at 3.15 to boomz out everything i know. till then...... shokutbusu(: Posted on: Posted at: 2:28 PM Thanks gramps Sorry for taking up your time. But thanks a lot:) seriously. Thanks:) 2 diabetic drinks and a lolly or 3 lollies now. Jia yours to you to. Make it to the end barh:) lets do this together and see if we will see each other and the finishing line... 我猜到了这个地步，我们所能做的就是相信自己... Posted on: Saturday, July 3, 2010 Posted at: 11:22 PM council stress I'll try to be back at night before i sleep... Very stressed suddenly... But is it just me and my mind playin tricks on me or is this for real. Is it just me thinking too much or is this really what i'm up against. Is it just me having one of those random stress days or is this the reality? Is this really what i chose for myself or is this just another fantasy? IS ITTT ORR NOTTTT? stressed><> But now, looking back, i dunno where i'm walking towards now. wats line up ahead of me. There's too many things all coming at the wrong time i guess. TOO MANY I TELLL YOUU. of all timess. it has to be NOW the current situation is like the following: ㅁ으쟝ㅈㄷㄱ시프얘잉얘헤 its like falling into k pop. At first before you step into k pop, you have your doubts about it. Dunno whether is it what you're really looking for, or is it really tt good. So, with that kind of mindset, you take the chance and go forr it with some other ppl too. Then. you start to think k pop is so nicee and stuff. But U dont understand wat they're singing. You dont know wat so nice abt it. Most stupidly, you dont know wats the reason behind why u want to hear it so much. But u just fall into it and head towards no where into the world of k pop, sometimes wondering how you initially fall into it. And at the end of the day, u may start to realise that you dunno wat u gain or lost or wasted on it... and if you just give up on k pop like tt cos of the time you spent on it for for any reason, you'll find yrself nowhere and back to where you started. I guess that maybe tts what i'm facin now... AIII YARHHH. DUNNOO LARHHH. as much as i think that its just me, at the back of my mind i cant help but keep wondering. i;ve been thinking a lot of things. you know those days where everything just boomz into your head, i've been having a lot of those seizures behind those BWAHAHHAHA momments. AS IN ITS CONSTANTLY AT THE BACK OF MY MINDD.... i think i'm having some pyschogical disease.... or maybe i just need to talk to someone. haiz... and to those ppl that asked me, thanks i guess? but i dont know whether i'm fine or not and i'm scared by my own answer. serious. TO THOSE THAT DONT GET THINGS BEFORE YOU WANNA SAY ANYTHING TO ME READ THIS FREKAING POST FIRST why does my heart feel so heavy. why. ashleigh Posted on: Thursday, July 1, 2010 Posted at: 3:55 PM