this ain't a fairy tale.
i know i'm not in the right state to be typing this. my stomach keep making noise... but i just suddenly thought abt this. so..


hello world. i'm back again. for some reason. i feel very heavy hearted suddenly. you know this week has been a really really slack week. and this coming week right, who was it that told me... YES. ITS LIKE JUDGEMENT DAY. someone told me it's what... cant rmb larh.


erm i'm not exactly kidding rite now. i'm starting to feel really really nervous. nxt week blocks are coming back. you know how they always say "die alrd this time. die die die" you know how those scenarios are "fake"... like as in you kinda know theres hope. but i know this time, there's totally no hope alrd...


rmb how swollen my eyes were on the day we got back our math paper... yes. it's prolly one of the worst worst worst times i have eva cried... i;m not trying to rake up the past or anything. but its just tt i know this time. the past is gonna repeat itself again. its not just my gut saying this. i myself alrd know that it's gonna happen. how do i say this... as in i already know that there's no light at the end of this tunnel? something like tt. i really really am very scared. i seriously know this time its the end for me. what am i to do...


when tt day comes... i swear i'm just gonna die. so i'm not even gonna try to hide. very very very scared now....

i feel all jiggly inside.. what to do...


ai yarh. i'm gonna bonk first. I THINK SLEEP IS A GOOD WAY TO AVOID TROUBLE... but its not a permanent solution... lalaland... here i come....


I'M GONNA TRY TO SLEEP BY 12..20(:
till then, i'm gonna roll in by bed and stop thinking abt this... sian-.-



peace.
ash


p.s. FROM NOWONWARDS. I'LL TRY TO END OF WITH A PIC(: